Night Out
I need to tell you a little bit about my situation. I am a single mother of one. I am 23 and my daughter is two years old. As you can imagine, I don't get much time to myself. I love being a mother don't get me wrong. But, as a woman, I have needs too.
I don't have much of a chance to meet men. Actually, I never get the chance to meet men. The only time I get to meet men is when I am at work. Usually I am so busy, that I don't have the time. I work at the check out line at a grocery store. I run the register and help bag the stuff. We have school kids that are supposed to help bag the groceries, but some times they don't do their jobs. I don't know what they are doing. I don't get on them about it though. I know they are kids and don't really want to work. They are just looking to make enough money to buy the things that their parents won't get them.
I usually work at least six days per week. I don't make much money, so I have to work as much as I can. The owner is really nice and gives me overtime if I want it. Of course I take it, but I really don't want it. But, I have to make ends meet. If I didn't, I wouldn't be able to afford living.
I don't regret having my daughter. She is the reason why I get up every morning. Though, I do wish that I could have been older when I had her. It is nothing against her, I just want to live a life. Is that selfish? Is it selfish to want to live? If so, I am guility.
I also would have liked to been older so I could have been more prepared. If I had known what it takes to raise a child, I would have gotten an education. I would have went to college or got some training. That way I would have a good job and wouldn't have to work so much. But, I might be able to go to college when she goes to school. I talked to a woman at the community college and she said that I can get government money to go to college if I want to. I want to, but I don't know if I could work at the grocery store and go to college. On top of all of that, I would have to take care of my daughter too.
Mr. Keller who owns the grocery store says that if I go to college for business, he will let me run the store. Mr. Keller has several different grocery stores. He says I am a good worker and would love to have me take over one of the stores. He says that soon he will want to retire and will need someone to run the store for him. I will think about going to school to do this. I like him and I would like a better paying job. He says that I could be at work while my daughter is in school. By the time she got off school, I would be off work. That sounds great, but that is some time down the road. I have to deal with today and not just tomorrow.
I asked my sister if she would watch my daughter for me. Just for a few hours just so I could get out of the house. I wanted to go down to the bar and have a few drinks. I knew that if I bought one, I could find guys that would buy me drinks. I know that sounds bad, but when you don't have money, that is how you do it. The way I see it is, I am a cheap drunk. I don't have to drink ten drinks to get drunk. After about four or five, I am feeling good.
I walked down to the bar. It is about a twenty minute walk from my house. I thought that I could use the walk to remove some stress also. Walking is my way of getting rid of stress. It seems to work. By the time that I went into the bar, I was relaxed. Relaxed enough to be able to have some fun.