I don't know where to start. Nothing seems to be making sense these days. I have a story to tell. I have to say, I haven't told anyone about it. Sometimes I think it is best not told, but who knows. All I know is that my life has gotten out of control.

Five months ago I got pregnant. Then, my boyfriend dumped me. That's right, he broke up with me when he found out I was pregnant. My world came tumbling down. Unless you have been in a situation like this, you won't know what I am talking about.

I had all of these bills to pay. As you might know, when you get pregnant, you have go to the doctor a lot. My boyfriend didn't pay one cent of my doctor bills. Hell, he ran out of state. I still don't know where he is. I guess that is for the best.

A few weeks ago I had a miscarriage. I felt sick and I went to the hospital. I delivered my baby and he was dead. I never even knew it was a boy until he came out dead. I was devastated. I had taken care of myself so well, to have something like this happen.

The whole time my boyfriend wasn't there for me. Now, he wasn't there for me again. I wish I could explain how much I hate that son of a bitch, but I guess it isn't worth my time. All I can think of doing to him is, kicking him as hard as I can in his nuts. That would make everything better. Maybe not, but I would feel better.

It does bother me that my son is dead and that asshole doesn't even know about it. I haven't even tried contacting his family. I figure he didn't care about me when I was pregnant, he wouldn't care if it is dead.

This is a real story that happened. I don't think of myself of a woman who does this sort of thing, but I was feeling very lonely. Not just lonely, but upset too. If you have been through what I have been, you know what I am talking about. Nothing is like loosing your own child.

“What's wrong Susie?” My neighbor Stan asked.

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